Life for me, seems to be a series of ups and downs and in between, and I feel like I am in one of those in between places, yet, hopeful, that I am finally back on my way upwards.
2010 was also the year that I discovered what a passion I have for beads and bead weaving. This discovery has put me on a path that has led me to this place, thus far.
A few weeks back, I joined a Face Book group called "The Artist's Way." The main focus of the group is to read a book called "The Artist's Way" by Julia Cameron; 1 chapter per week for a 12 week period. In chapter three, there are a few paragraphs allotted to Synchronicity and one of them reads;
" In outsized lifes, such moments stand out in bas-relief, large as Mount Rushmore: Lewis and Clark headed west. Isak Dinesen took off for Africa. We all have our Africas, those dark and romantic notions that call to our deepest selves. When we answer that call, when we commit to it, we set in motion the principle that C. G. Jung dubbed synchronicity, loosely defined as a fortuitous inter meshing of events. Back in the sixties we called in Serendipity. Whatever you choose to call it, once you begin your creative recovery you may be startled to find it cropping up everywhere."
This past Saturday my darling daughter, who's about to have her 33rd birthday was here for a visit. She had some errands that needed running and we planned on taking my car and spending the entire day together. Problem was, my car needed gas and my girls (cats) needed a bag of dry food that costs $19.99 a whack! :) Gas in the car or food for the girls? Not a good choice to make and I didn't know how I was going to work that out, as I only had a 20 dollar bill. Fortunately, for me, I didn't have to. "Synchronicity" worked it out for me!
As we were pulling out of the driveway to head to town, my daughter asked me which errand I wanted to run first. I responded with, "I need to go get gas in the car first." She looked over at me, and said, "Just for today will you promise not to argue with me?" When do I ever argue with her...lol? Ok, perhaps more than I would like to admit, at least, to her! I said, " I can't promise that..." and with that response I was met with the eyes! The eyes that say, " Really Mom?" I gave her the eyes back that said, "Ok, what is this really ALL about?" She replied, I want to fill your gas tank, run our errands and then take you out for a really nice dinner." She knows me very well and knew I would kick up a big fuss about taking her help, and I have to admit it was very difficult for me to accept her gracious offer because I know she is dealing with her own financial demons. In fact, one of the hardest things I have ever done. But in the end, when all was said and done, I acquiesced! I was thinking like 20 bucks, but she insisted on filling my tank. I have a 15 gallon tank in my car and gas is over 4 bucks a gallon-- You do the math! I can't even remember the last time I had a full tank of gas. What I know for sure is that I was struggling with how I was going to manage to do both things.. gas in the car and food for the girls. I never expected to receive what I was given. Thanks to the gift of love and generosity from my beloved daughter(angel), I wasn't forced to make that choice. Was this a lesson in synchronicity for me? I definitely think it was, and I have to say, due to this incident, my scope of vision has increased immensely.
To ALL of you self-doubters out there who doubt the power of synchronicity..... Doubt no more! I no longer do! I leave you with this final thought:
"Chance is always powerful. Let your hook be always cast; in the pool where you least expect it, there will be a fish."
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Until next time.... Bead true to yourself!
You have a lovely daughter. I love that she did that for you and that you let her. Both are wonderful gestures because when we let people help us, they feel so great to be helping and we feel so great to be helped. It's a win-win situation. I loved hearing your story!
ReplyDeleteThank you Sally! It was a very difficult story for me to write... but having said that, I am blessed and thankful every single day for her presence in my life. Thank you for saying what you did... I hadn't thought about it in those terms. It helps. :)
ReplyDeleteA beautiful gesture from your beautiful daughter. I can really relate to your difficulty in accepting, but like, Sally, I love that you did! I've felt the exact same way with my own daughters, but I believe it's a gift we give back to them to accept the generosity of their hearts and their love for us. I'm glad you had such a wonderful day!
ReplyDeleteThank you Callie! It was really difficult for me to "allow"... because instinct tells us that it is us(Mother's) that do for them(Son's and Daughter's), not the other way around! However, I do believe you are correct and very wise when you say that it is a gift given in return when we allow ourselves to receive someone Else's generosity and love! It was one of the best days I've had in awhile... time spent with her is always cherished and valued. :)
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